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Saturday, April 14, 2012 // 10:05 AM

For some reason i just feel like blogging now :)

Yes Siew May, u should sleep, its already 1 in the morning and i have to wake up early tomorrow.

I just realised that i have abandoned this blog for a really, really long time.

so i'm here to 'realive' it again haha!

now i feel like changing the layout again.

haha! that's because i feel that i have changed. :)

for the good or for the worse?

for the good, i hope..

i'm no longer the naive person i was.
I'm more exposed, more aware, more cautious of people now..
some parts of me has dissapeared, or remains tightly bounded inside me, unwilling to come out again.
some of my past affections have changed too.
somehow i'm happy with who i am now.
i want to be independent, able to stand on my own feet.
i want to be strong, courageous, recognised.

and i'm in the process of achieving it now :)

i want to be capable.
people who achieve stuff just by their looks disgust me.

i am happy that i am much, much further than how i was last year :)
had i held on to those fears of mine, i would not be able to achieve what i am now.
or rather, i wouldnt have those experiences that rocked me so much.
i have proved that i'm able to fly high myself
and find loyal friends by the way :)
i dont have to be bounded by anyone
i learnt that.

everything comes and goes.
it might be painful at that time,
but we must all remember
the next will always be better.

now when i think back
i jeer at my foolishness..
how could i stoop so low?
if i'm not wanted there, there'll be somewhere else for me.
i dont have to constrict myself.

now its back.
i will not heed.
for what have u done?

nothing.